Every creative man must have in mind that his experience is the greatest resource for his work. In writing especially, the experience is what makes the book. The evidence that accumulated experience births masterpieces abound especially in work of arts.
Of course, this does not mean that you have to be sentenced to death to write better, it only means that a person, an individual should develop self-consciousness which will let us say, properly adapt itself to the given experience in life.
Suffering is inevitable in human life, and in critical situations, a man is often condemned with thoughts of revenge, hatred, self-deception, self-incrimination, even self-destruction. There are ways out, many ways sometimes, but sometimes there are none.
In such conditions, considering the individual history of the person, many succumb to lesser emotions. This is normal, it is expected.
But I have always believed that in some moments of that terrible war with others, or with yourself there will appear a point of relief where a person chooses, either to take revenge or to forgive.
I know that such a point exists, and above all that it must exist because life would seem almost impossible for us mortals. Of course, I don’t say that almost every moment of our existence is pain and torment, I’m just saying that there were, and there are people who truly live these lives.
But, no doubt, there are in every person’s life those moments when darkness really prevails, it lasts for days, months, or even years. That suffering could also be a product of someone else’s pain, death.
Then what? Almost every human being will feel uncomfortable or unbearable feelings, and in that way, many things will arise in him or her.
But after the impact, a man who is above the certain point of being aware of his experience may come to a decision to implement the feelings, emotions, thoughts and also the experience which brought to all that, in one way or another in a form of a book or an art piece.
It is said that only in a direct contact with experience true ideas are born. This is (in most cases) true. There has to be one developed psychological system so that experience could really be put in context that is suitable to it, or at least an awareness of past events.
I talk about self-consciousness, knowing your own emotions, judging them or even a perception of them from a point of view of someone who would simply laugh at them.
Only in that way can one give meaning and credence to the experience, no matter how gloomy. That usually happens in those moments of relief, when a person is in a position to do that kind of, great and demanding work. But, on the other side, what if that point sometimes does not exists?
One of my favourite writers is Fyodor Dostoevsky and I’ve always wondered how he was able to produce such great, invaluable material in such terrible conditions he lived in.
While his wife was dying he still wrote, more than ever. What drove him to write?
Dostoevsky was a man who lived his life through his works. It was a form of catharsis for him considering the travails he went through in his lifetime and indeed was one of many people in history who truly lived their books before writing them.
Still, we must abandon all illusions: his goal was financial, he wanted to get out from the undercity, to become one of the non-poor folk.
But, putting that aside, it is certain that some greater inner power was at the helm of his will. Let us not forget that plain knowledge about what is right and what is wrong does not make us competent to act in a course of proper action.
For theoretical knowledge is almost useless if it isn’t applied through adequate work, and for such knowledge to become manifested, huge reserves of willpower are required.
His only way to persist the brutal faith that was upon him was to write, for giving his own experience the required meaning, he added meaning to his own life and his own suffering.
I think the will that drove this great man was the question his life presented before him: What is the source of such evil, of such misfortune that destroys the man, creating out him some kind of a moral monster? Where is it?
The answer is that is in the human nature itself and that is the place where he started his great search. His characters possess such depth, they are so much human.
It is worthy to note that those characters are not only words on paper, but they also have roots in the writer himself, in sole life that he experienced, in his memories, thoughts.
The impact of his seminal work “The Brothers Karamazov” can still be felt today because the little boy who was torn apart by the General’s dogs is very much real, he lives today.
Every writer should at least keep in mind that one of his goals must be to conscientiously incorporate his own life experience into a piece, and in that way to really take his revenge upon that and those who brought him pain; or on the other hand to punish himself, to acknowledge his sins, to confess in this form, because in that way he will pass his message to others, to future generations, teaching them not to act as those who are, in their own way, partly or entirely responsible for that which writer had written.